How time flies!

I have been here over half a year. How time flies! I still remembered the day I left Lanzhou. I went out to meet Tang, and I was so sad for we hadn't more time to stay together.

Yesterday I thought a lot about past old days. Instead of the happy things I usually thought about, this time I remembered many bad tings, which made me really blue. And the result was I made a dream. Now I can't remember the dream clearly, but the feeling is still there, and one scene, I walked with Lu hand in hand. It's a bit strange for it's Lu. I think we never walked hand in hand before actually, because it seems he don't like to. Anyway, he is one of my dear friends, so he is whom I would walk with hand in hand. And other scenes, which I don't want to remember them at all, I refused to look at Xie and don't want to speak to Su. It's true, you will dream what you are thinking about. I must be trapped in the unhappiness for losing some friends. However, it's how life should be. You meet somebody, know something about him, and then leave him. It's a cycle how people get along with others. For different people, the time of the cycle could be different, someone longer while someone shorter, and the feeling either, someone makes you happy while someone makes you sad. But no matter how long you know him, how much you know about him, how sad you are when you leave him, you will get away from him someday, maybe after 1 second or after you die.

I'm confused about future. I still don't know what is the meaning for I'm living. But I'm going to live happily, I have a strong will to do so.

From today I begin to teach my workmate Chinese. I'm glad someone is interested in Chinese. For me, Chinese is the most beautiful language in the world.